Here is an introduction to my first Ayahuasca Ceremony.
It was beautiful, touching, heart lifting and totally a surrender to my deeper self.
It is impossible to write about THIS AMAZING experience in only one post. I promise will do a series of posts and videos to be able to cover everything, ok?.
Before I go into the details of my journey and how I am doing since I took Ayahuasca. Let’s take a look at:
- What is Ayahuasca?
- Why have I decided to take Ayahuasca medicine?
What is Ayahuasca?
In a short description, it is a brew. Like a tea made from the combination of a type of vine Cipo Jagube (Banisteriopsis caapi) with a type of bush Chacrona (Psychotria viridis). This two plant contains DMT (dimethyltryptamine). In other words, it is a hallucinogenic tea.
Other psychoactive plants with other psychically inactive ones, may be added to the blend.
It depends on the shaman and how he or she prefers to prepare it.
Ayahuasca is a drink that helps to open the third vision.
A divine plant that put you in touch with self-knowledge, the expansion of the conscience and to receive advice of the spirituality.
It is also known as wine of the soul, being considered a sacred drink.
It is used in many religions in Brazil (Santo Daime, Barquinha, União do Vegetal) and other shamanic rituals.
Used by the indigenous people in the Amazon region for millions of years and today in various other regions in South America such as Peru, Colombia, and others.
The drink has no side-effect but some people experience nausea, headache, dizziness, thirst, sickness etc…
The taste is not pleasant to be honest. It is bitter and dry.
Taste like the horrible antibiotics that “some” of us used to get when we were young and them our mum gave us something sweet afterwards.
If you feel sensitive to smell and taste like me you will probably vomit! (Ughhhh) I did many times!.
But don’t worry you are not going to carer about the vomiting as this intelligent plant heals not only the physical body but also the soul.
The Ayahuasca can bring revelations, courage, confidence and so on.
The plant will show you not what you want to see but what you need to see!.
Important to remember that there are some restrictions to take ayahuasca if you are in certain controlled medicine.
You need to find the right place and the right Shaman to be able to analyse your case carefully.
Please! make sure you seek for the medicine with a well-trained healer that holds ceremonies with the right intention of engaging and open up your spiritual path.
Remember people have different experiences. Even though my one was very enlightening and self-loving some people experience extremely challenges.
But at the end, I think everybody receives the benefits of the Ayahuasca.
Why take Ayahuasca medicine?
I am generally interested in personal and spiritualism self-development.
For the past 3 years, I heard people talking about Ayahuasca; the thought of taking was always on the back of my mind.
Meeting my boyfriend (that it is also very keen on the subject) was the final push that I needed to finally decided to take it the medicine.
Just to give you some background:
I am now 37 years old and since I got on 30th I become aware of my negative beliefs:
“That I’m not intelligent enough”, or “beautiful” or “slim” or “marriage material” or ‘simply I’m not good”.
I have experienced depression for over a year, domestic violence and other things that I will tell you more in depth as this blog develops.
The main point is that I am aware of the situations that trigger me.
But sometimes I don’t know how to take control over my monkey mind ( how I will call my negative self-talk) that keeps coming back every opportunity.
I have done cognitive behaviour therapy (CBT) in the past.
This helped me a lot to shift from negative belief to a positive one but was not enough.
I learned the tools but I could still not feel self-love or sometimes control the little monkey.
Self-development for me it is a infinitive road . We will keep walking and every time will be something new to learn from it. We can stop, we can change directions but we will never be exactly the same when we started. Even if we decide to take a few steps back; because we are in a constantly trasnformation of our souls.
As my boyfriend and I are very committed to learning and develop ourselves. We thought, would be a great opportunity to experience the Ayahuasca together and work on our own baggage ( and we all have).
Also, share our insights and experiences it is important for us to keep our relationship healthy.
We believe that to grow together we need to understand, respect and accept each others background and weakness. This enable us to strength our love and compromise to each other.
I am so glad that I found someone that shares the same beliefs and was willing to have this heart opening experience with me.
Apart from working on our own baggage, we were very open to what the medicine want to show us.
I was a bit more curious than him to see any paths or directions to my life as I feel a bit unsettled. I am new to the Netherlands, with no job or friends. I am learning a new language (that it is not too easy) and a lot of my time is around my boyfriend and his two lovely kids from a previous relationship.
To keep short, I thought that taking the Ayahuasca medicine could help me to work on my negative belief system and maybe the unsettlement feelings that I create.
Next post: My preparation, expectations, feelings and worries before my first Ayahuasca Ceremony. Don’t miss out!
And here are other themes that I am also going to explore:
- During the Ceremony – What happened at the ceremony and my journey to my subconscious.
- 3 days after the Ceremony – How did I feel and what thoughts and insights are coming up.
- A month after Ayahuasca – Here and Now. How to start to implement what I learned. Don’t let this experience be just a fading way dream.
Thanks sisters for stopping by and keep tuned for the next posts about My first Ayahuasca Experience.